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i shall write a happy poem
I shall write a happy poem
I must, I write too little
happy poems
Why do I write such sad poems
When I appear so happy
Where is the happiness
I need to write a happy
poem?
I shall write a happy poem
And yet, this isn't happy
This is turning out to be so sad
I should write a happy poem
I'm a happy person, am I not?
Sometimes I don't know anymore
I don't know whether
I'm happy or not
And if I'm not
Why am I sad?
Who can tell me
Why I'm so sad?
Who can tell me
Why I can't find happiness?
I have everything
To keep me happy
But if I wasn't happy
in the first place
How am I to keep being
happy?
I shall write a happy poem
But it seems
This is a sad poem.

chiiyo's comments :
I crack a smile everytime I read this poem again. You see, I was extremely depressed at one point of my life, and I wrote poems by the pages. I showed most of the tamer ones to my best friend, who started crying. Apparently they were too sad for her. So what I did was that I told her I was going to write a happy poem. I even wrote the title down. Unfortunately, as you might have deduced for yourself, the title didn't do much help, except, perhaps to remind me of the futility of the task.



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